*up at 6. practiced until 8. brain block came on around 8:30. panicked for a few minutes...concert begins at 10. here we go...
*"PROACTIVE: not being defined by environment, feelings, attitude, emotions, status, people, or people's opinions of you."-the inspirational words written on my hand at 9:00 this morning. only lasted a few hours until they disappeared off my sweaty palms.
*fellow cheerful piano student: "it's like, hey, what's the worst that could happen up there?"
cynical me: "forget every note and/or forget your name, trip on the stage, send mics flying, break something, dent the 9ft concert Steinway grand, piddle your pants, lisp uncontrollably, burst into tears, rip the sheet music trying to turn those ridiculously thin pages and, fate forbid, end up playing a rock song."
"i was trying to be positive here."
"oh. well then, nothing i can think of..."
*SUCCESS. discovered the thrill that comes from performing under the spotlight. no noticeable mistakes...felt a wicked longing to burn the sheet music when i got home.
*"it's like crack, only better." -explaining the electrifying thrill from performing to evan. he seemed concerned.
wage a battle against embitterment and take part in 365 days of Grace in Small Things.
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